I have fallen. Fallen to a point to a point where I ask, "God please reach out to me and pull me up." I still dwell in the hole of life which I created. Yet I am too stubborn to ask for help until I can't get out again. How much must I fall? How much must I keep learning before I can move forward? My life seems to be torn from end to end. The very people I love and reach out to can't feel me right now. My heart is broken. Heart is severed in pieces because of the opened acts of free will. How do we know what is best for us? Are we the ones who figure it out or just have enough sense to listen to God's will when things happen? How does life hurt so much but yet yield no understanding?

It brings out the sinful nature of our souls. It binds us and coils around us until the world sees the grace which we get from God. Grace that is undeserving but given to us freely by God. As he looks upon us he does not see the scarlet sin painted on our bodies but the light of His son's face peering at him from the cross.

Yet, I have fallen. Fallen to the worlds sin today and everyday. Some sin which I can control. Others are sin in which I have to break the cursed habit that drowns me in this world. Day by day I place a prayer for guidance and strength. I am a sinner for the world to cast their stones on. I bow marked by man with the chalice reigns of forgiveness. I raise up to realize I will never be a man of full completeness. I must search each day for the whisper of God. Sometimes I am too closed off to hear it or too anxious to deliver my own words of wisdom. There it is again placing His will last because I feel the bile coming out of my mouth is more important. When will I ever realize the complications of this world only hinder on the mere fact that I dwell on the negative? Instead, I should be looking to the light of the day as a gift from God. Each day I awake is a day he has blessed me with. I see nothing sometimes to my amusement. Nothing that capture my eye of His creation. Other days, I see the whole world pressed around me like a painting carefully marked up with stroke after stroke.

Mark of Man

I have tasted an apple,

Pulled from the tree,

Luscious and juicy

Delightfully peaceful

Calming my mind

Releasing my will

I have tasted

I feel fine

I have no carnage

I have no guilt

The fruit satisfied

And filled my body

With nutrients of the soul

I am clear in mind

Free to fly

But I have tasted the fruit

I

Have tasted

The mark of man

I am

Scarred by the desires of my will

Yet I am still free

Avatar

Avatar is brilliantly done with the new technology and the major advances in CGI. People tend to look at the magnificents of the technology and not the elegance of the story. Are we doing this to our own planet? Are we destroying love over earthly wants and needs? Is this world a place we see as God's creation or a world we see our own earthly desires?

These are all questions that came to mind as I watched. The story was pretty typical one with a twist of conquering a new world for money. People try to conquer the natives from within and take tactical maneuvers in order to capture everything they want. While the natives, Primitive people they called them, look at the nature around them and see the beauty and desires in everything God has created or in their god in the movie. However, the best line to convey this is "the world to the Avatar is all of one center, tree of souls, and it communicates to each other as one network. It drives their existence by living in the complete and natural circle of life." Our depends as people is to desire more even if we destroy that circle.

Isn't this funny? The people who find the simple things of nature and in life are content with how they love and live. They don't need contraptions or anything else to see the value of life. Yet, we have everything needed to distract us from seeing the true creation of God. We keep pushing forward for advancement and improvements when it is nothing more then the desires of sinful natures to improve things. Now, some things need improvements like education and medicine. However, the distractions of computers and television has caused an epidemic of distraction and less concentration on the world we need to know more about in order to save it.

People may think I am crazy. However, I am like all of you. I like having my computer to educate myself. I like having a few distractions in my life to get rid of anything bothering me. I want to see His creation of God before me as well. I don't waste my life seating in front of a television on days I know I can hike or do something with someone. Matter of fact, once a certain person is gone then I will be unplugging my television from the cable and turning off my internet at home because it is a distraction. If i could go back to the dark ages of just a home telephone and a bicycle to get me around town then I will. This may happen.

As you go out today look at the mountains and the weather and see the beauty and the balance God has created in order for us to be here. How are we suppose to move forward if first we don't appreciate what first was created in us? We desire Him and relationships and bonds with people. Now, we create bonds with contraptions and electronic devices that entertain the mind and get rid of the emotions we need to deal with. In some cases people run away more than ever because they see a movie or a show and they try to make their lives like a fantasy they have in their heads when all they need is a companion to show them anything can happen if you are willing to see God's will. God will give you the desires of your heart.

Avatar paints a distinct picture of the desires of sinful man and the righteousness of those who see His creation. We may not see this in our own lives but it is evident in the movie that we need to open our eyes and work with nature as oppose to just destroying its natural movement and state of being.

After saying all this, I ask myself what am I going to do to help stay with nature more? How am I going to help show God's will in my life? I will say this, I am human and can have many mistakes happen even while searching for God. It is how I reconcile and become the man I am by His grace that will show me what I need to become for His kingdom. I will make mistakes and I will make choices that may hurt people and hurt myself but it is the path in which I must see and strive after to make sure those people I hurt are those who I am forgiven by and I forgive those who hurt me. We are suppose to be is arms and His feet in everything we do and sometimes that takes us opening our arms to our worst enemies. We must be willing to be nailed to the cross just like Christ in order for people to see his unfailing love.

Now we must ask ourselves are we going to strive and when we fall be ready to stand back up in order to move forward? Are we going to run and face different challenges without him? The path of righteousness is hard and one that can only be done with God in your heart guiding you. Those who choose to do things without guidance will try to take paths of simplicity and think they are doing God's will. To those people we must be ready to have our arms open wide to them even if we don't agree with what they did or doing. We must guide them by being ourselves and loving on them. Loving on them could be just as much as a phone call or a handshake. We must show them God's love on them even if it is outside ourselves to do. I am ready and have my arms open. I am ready to go.